My Thank You Note To God

Today I realized that even during a struggle if you have faith in him and his works then the weight of worry lifts off your shoulders. There have been times where I have worked so hard to try to have extra or to maintain our household for my children and things still have happened that don't seem to be in my favor. It is during those moments that I remember if I am doing everything I should be doing and something is still happening.. then that is God's will.

I used to worry and stress and let control consume me. Then one day I took a deep breath, looked up in the sky and said.. "ok, I get it now" and then began to thank him for the things that he had worked out in my life that I didn't even know I needed. When you find divine appreciation and give control to Heavenly Father then you see it all fall into place. And even if that picture at the end isn't what you thought it would be or wished for you realize that it actually is even better. And you thank him for not giving you what you thought you wanted.

Make A Wish

Today I got a random phone call from a gentleman who was with the Make A Wish foundation. Someone put us in to have a wish granted!! I can't even begin to explain how sweet and thoughtful it was to know that someone was thinking about us and felt that in their heart we deserved a wish.

The representative had me tell him a few things about Courtney and what she likes and what makes her happy. From here we are assigned someone who comes to visit us and then they will determine what wish they are granting and tada!!

You definitely get back what you put out in the world.

Say Cheese!!!

My, the girls and my boyfriend went down to Mt. Pleasant to have some me and the girls family pics taken. She did an amazing job and it was so much fun! We got a lot of goofy faces in the pics.

Stay tuned for more. This is just a funny little sneak peak..

Hello all! Sorry it has been so long since I last posted. A lot has been going on so I haven't had the chance to blog about it all.

Courtney is healed and recovered well from her surgery. She had another follow up appointment today to talk about the next thing we are going to tackle and trying to get her new wheelchair. The next biggest issue for her is her scoliosis. She was very straight until a couple years ago and now she slouches pretty bad and has some curvature in her ribs and spine that are causing some difficulty with her inflating her lungs all the way. We rearranged some of the medications that she is on to try to make sure we are managing her pain in a way that she will be comfortable.

I finally made some headway with the wheelchair situation. I go into the wheelchair clinic on July 10th to refit her for her new chair. By the time school starts she should be cruisin in a new ride!

Jordan started competitive cheer last week and absolutely loves it so far. She placed in the Level 2 team and made flier. Which means that she is the one that they throw up in the air for stunts. Yesterday she tried her basket toss for the first time and did pretty well. They are all learning each other and how to work with each other so it will take a few practices to get it down. While Courtney and I wait for Jordan to be finished with cheer we goof around in the car and sing.

Courtney was with her dad this weekend and Jordan and I had gotten bored so we strolled through the Temple grounds and toured the Beehive House. We are direct descendants of  Brigham Young so it was way awesome to see how our family lived and actually see some of their original belongings.

Jordan at the Salt Lake City Temple - June 2014

Courtney wanting to play with the Volleyball in the car waiting for Jordan

Trip to D.C.

I had to put everything happening at home on pause for a few days. I was assigned to travel to DC for a work conference. At first I was upset that I had to leave when there is so much going on with Courtney recovering and starting a few projects buuuut I absolutely love DC.

We do not have to go to the meeting hall until 6 pm tonight so my boss and I went to a nice little deli and then walked to the Waterfront and the weather has been beautiful. I absolutely love this place. If I could I think I would move here. The building architecture and culture is great. You hardly run into smokers walking the streets in DC which is nice to not be breathing that in. It seems like when you walk the streets back home you run into smoker after smoker.

Here are a couple pictures from my beautiful surroundings :)

A Project Is Among Us!!

As many of you know I love to craft and learn new skill. I have seen a lot of "reclaiming" of furniture lately and it seems pretty popular so I thought I might give it a shot!
As you can imagine the hospital bills for Courtney are enormous so I am thinking of extra ways to bring in the cash flow. I figured we would start with a simple project first and see how it turns out. Jordan decided that she wanted to give it a shot too! I don't think she realized how powerful a sander is. Stay tuned for the finished product!

Oh and while me and Courtney were waiting for the primer to dry we decided to be total goofballs...

Table For One

I have to tell ya, with all of this going on I feel like I haven't had a social life for so long. I find the time here and there to go on a date but I'm not sure if my mentality is wrong but I am definitely feeling somewhat burnt out. It may be that I just haven't found "The One" yet but it seems as though the characteristics of each man blends in with the next. I think that may sound awful to say but then again this is a blog about real life and real experiences. I mean all I am asking for is a tall, smart, funny, sweet and romantic man who is looking for a relationship who somewhat resembles Channing Tatum.... that isn't too much to ask for is it?

The conversations are almost identical when getting to know someone too.... what do you like to do for fun.. how long have you been divorced... what are you looking for in a guy... do you want to get married again...
All of it I have memorized. Dating at this age is very tricky. I have been married and want to be married again so I am looking for a committed relationship. I do not want to move too fast which I will admit has been one thing I have always struggled with in my relationships. I would rush rush rush and then wonder why the relationship ended as fast as it started. I talk to my friends about this all the time.... that I remember a day when if you liked someone then you liked them, that's it just that one person. You would get to know just that person and spend time with that person. Now we are in this world filled with options. You are no longer the only woman standing in line for the interview to be this mans girlfriend. It seems the moment something arises that someone doesn't like.. poof it's over and he or she is on to the next one. And people actually use that term when breaking up with people.. On to the next one? What are we? Have we all become disposable when it comes to this dating game?

As a woman of faith I try to stay optimistic.And I try to remember that what is meant to be will be and my soul mate is out there. But with each date that doesn't call back or every guy who clings on and then scares himself out of it.. I become more and more of a pessimist. I have seen it all.. I have had men take me out on dates that are not really single and then the girlfriend has shown up, I have dated men who say that they are ready for a relationship and want to spend every day with me and then after 2 months say they are not ready for a relationship... I have fallen victim to almost every emotionally unstable dating scenario there is. I do not want it all to taint me to the point where when a good guy does come along I don't see it because I am waiting for his issues to pop out at me. I would just appreciate honesty and sincerity. Why can't people just say "I'm not looking for a committed relationship" then I would get to chose whether or not I continued seeing them. Dishonest intentions lead to so much drama and heartache.

I am not sure what it is but I think these days, society is a proponent of single. It is no longer the norm to grow up, get married and have kids. At least for many that I meet. Maybe I am old fashioned when it comes to this subject but isn't life better spent with that counterpart? Isn't life better when you can share moments and emotions with someone who loves and cares for you? Or will we eventually get to the point where we are all just sitting at a table for one?....

This is a topic that I am very interested in and appreciate any and all comments.