Table For One

I have to tell ya, with all of this going on I feel like I haven't had a social life for so long. I find the time here and there to go on a date but I'm not sure if my mentality is wrong but I am definitely feeling somewhat burnt out. It may be that I just haven't found "The One" yet but it seems as though the characteristics of each man blends in with the next. I think that may sound awful to say but then again this is a blog about real life and real experiences. I mean all I am asking for is a tall, smart, funny, sweet and romantic man who is looking for a relationship who somewhat resembles Channing Tatum.... that isn't too much to ask for is it?

The conversations are almost identical when getting to know someone too.... what do you like to do for fun.. how long have you been divorced... what are you looking for in a guy... do you want to get married again...
All of it I have memorized. Dating at this age is very tricky. I have been married and want to be married again so I am looking for a committed relationship. I do not want to move too fast which I will admit has been one thing I have always struggled with in my relationships. I would rush rush rush and then wonder why the relationship ended as fast as it started. I talk to my friends about this all the time.... that I remember a day when if you liked someone then you liked them, that's it just that one person. You would get to know just that person and spend time with that person. Now we are in this world filled with options. You are no longer the only woman standing in line for the interview to be this mans girlfriend. It seems the moment something arises that someone doesn't like.. poof it's over and he or she is on to the next one. And people actually use that term when breaking up with people.. On to the next one? What are we? Have we all become disposable when it comes to this dating game?

As a woman of faith I try to stay optimistic.And I try to remember that what is meant to be will be and my soul mate is out there. But with each date that doesn't call back or every guy who clings on and then scares himself out of it.. I become more and more of a pessimist. I have seen it all.. I have had men take me out on dates that are not really single and then the girlfriend has shown up, I have dated men who say that they are ready for a relationship and want to spend every day with me and then after 2 months say they are not ready for a relationship... I have fallen victim to almost every emotionally unstable dating scenario there is. I do not want it all to taint me to the point where when a good guy does come along I don't see it because I am waiting for his issues to pop out at me. I would just appreciate honesty and sincerity. Why can't people just say "I'm not looking for a committed relationship" then I would get to chose whether or not I continued seeing them. Dishonest intentions lead to so much drama and heartache.

I am not sure what it is but I think these days, society is a proponent of single. It is no longer the norm to grow up, get married and have kids. At least for many that I meet. Maybe I am old fashioned when it comes to this subject but isn't life better spent with that counterpart? Isn't life better when you can share moments and emotions with someone who loves and cares for you? Or will we eventually get to the point where we are all just sitting at a table for one?....

This is a topic that I am very interested in and appreciate any and all comments.